Whatever Happens, Happens

Monday February 13, 2012; Day 98; 3:07PM:  As I am about an hour or so from weighing in at Fat Camp (Aultman Weight Loss Center) I am completely at peace with whatever the scale says.  Allow me to explain.

I typically get all worked up about the specifics in the numbers that the scale produces.  but I learned a much more valuable lesson this week already.  My week started out great and I got 3 really solid workouts in.  I was feeling good, noticing improvement, and genuinely geared towards a big number week I commonly refer to in these posts.  But on Thursday I got a call from my wife, she was in the ER due to a health concern and immediate incident.  We spent two full days in the hospital, and when we left while both of us exhausted, all had worked out so very fortunately for her and I could not have been more happy for both outcome and prognosis.

During her stay, I typically didn't leave the room, and if so, not for more than 5 minutes so that I could be present for her, to hear doctors if they stopped by, and to hear test results if they came in.  I took a couple of the meal replacement bars with me and always filled my water bottle at the beginning of the day.  But with really long hours in the room and with the general anxiety and uncertainty of doctor visits to her, I did not eat, nor did I drink nearly any amount of the recommended levels, almost certainly putting the body in starvation mode.  And YES, when I grabbed, I typically opted for something easy and quick when I did not have bars near me.  Nothing catastrophic in the larger scheme of things, but certainly enough to throw my body off of the routine it has been in for so long.

I'm not minimizing the opportunity to lose each and every week, as I have enjoyed it immensely.  BUT, in this case I clearly realize the difference between a minor bump in the road, and the things I have control over.  I thank God my wife is healthy, happy, and returned home almost a close to form as she left it.  i know regardless of what the numbers say, I had a great week.  I know this because she is doing so well and because I realize this journey is not one that a week of uncontrollable circumstances will keep me from achieving my ultimate goal, regardless of some numbers on a scale. 

I'll post tomorrow morning when I know the particulars, but trust in the fact I will never be so at ease with whatever they may be this time!  I'm staying strong an pushing on!